March 13, 2014

Hello! It's Been a While.

I haven't posted in a long time.  Almost a month, I think.  I am still here, just not quite sure what to write about.  I can never seem to gather my thoughts.  There are so many things whirling around in my mind. 

WOW!!  What crazy weather.  Yesterday, it was 12 C and beautiful.  I went for a walk down to Port Dalhousie with my friend.  There were lots of people, ducks, geese and seagulls enjoying the sunshine. 

Today, what a contrast.  It is a blizzard.  I'm glad I didn't have to go anywhere today.  The picture doesn't really show how much it is blowing. 
So, my life has been kind of crazy.  Josh has been to the ENT specialist/oncologist in Hamilton.  Josh told the hospital that he has a cruise booked for May 11, so the surgery will hopefully be shortly after that.  They had told him probably two months.  The cancer is in his lymph nodes, so they will remove his thyroid and all of the lymph nodes on both sides of his neck, and from the base of the skull to the collar bone.  It will be a large incision and the doctor said it will take "all day".

As it turns out, the terrible pain that he was having was due to a wisdom tooth!  He had that removed and is feeling a lot better.  This is a case of  "everything happens for a reason".  If he hadn't gone to the clinic back on New Year's day for the jaw pain, he wouldn't have had the ultrasound on his neck and who knows how long it would have been until the cancer was discovered.

I've been thinking about my running more.  I have given up on the idea of the Niagara Falls Women's Half Marathon on June 1.  That is just too soon for me to properly prepare.  I may give it a shot on October 26, which is again in Niagara Falls.  Although it is a lot of fun to do a weekend away with a lot of people from Runners' Edge, it can end up being expensive, with hotel, gas, meals, etc.  Local is nice.  I just have this nagging problem with my left leg/hip.  It is not super painful, but it is not right.  October 26 is 32 weeks away, so I have lots of time to slowly work into it. 

I used to feel like I wasn't a "real" runner if I took walk breaks, or at least that is what I thought others thought of me.  But more and more, I hear/read about people who talk about going for a run and what their intervals were.  I know from past experience that taking walk breaks worked better as far as my blood sugars were concerned.  So, I need to stop worrying about what other people think or do and just do what is best for me and my health. 

And then, the other day, my friend Celine, who writes a blog called Running on Carbs, about Type 1 diabetes and running (she is actually now a triathlete), blogged about Invisible Medals.

I just LOVED this blog post.  It is not always finishing a race and getting a medal that means the most.  Sometimes, it is those victories along the way that really mean a lot.  So I got thinking about it and I do have some of my own.

Like when I was training for my first 10k (Ottawa, 2009) and I ran 9k one Sunday morning.  I finally acknowledged to myself that yes, I was going to be able to do this!

When I first started running, the first 300 m or so were really difficult.  My legs protested and tried to tell me that I really didn't want to be doing this.  Then I would get into a groove and be ok for a while.  So, one Sunday we were running along and I got that familiar protest from the legs, but I was blown away when I realized we were at about 5k into our run.  I still had a few more km to go.  I think that day was around 7 or 8 km, but it was an incredible realization!

The first time I ran more than 10k.  It was 11k on a really hot day and I said to Jim, "I guess I can call myself a long distance runner now".  It may be a short, easy run for some, but for me it was huge.

I have had setbacks and had to start back at 'Square One' more than once, but I am learning to not be so hard on myself, which is sometimes a difficult thing for me to do.     



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